Grace

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9a
I am weak, in SO many ways. I am often lazy, frequently a complainer, and since I've had Adam, I simply don't exercise. (In my 20's, I worked at a health club as a trainer. Up until I had the boy, I ran 2-3 miles several days a week, ate well, and was in really good shape for approaching 40). But I am struggling with a different sort of weakness right now. Tyler is on his way home to Heaven. He called me on Sunday and said that Adam and I needed to come over. He knew... I didn't think he'd be leaving us this soon, but he was packed, and it was time to go. And me? I'm NOT ready to say "See you later" to this amazing young man. And I am struggling with grace and mercy right now; how can His grace be sufficient for Tyler's family, who will live the rest of their lives with a Tyler-sized hole in it? But when I ask God to make it sufficient, all I can hear is Him, saying "Read the verse! My grace IS sufficient for you; it already IS!" So at this point, it's up to ME, not to Him. He's given me the gift; I just need to open it. God, help me to unwrap the layers and wrap the warm blanket of your never-ending love around me. And then, help me to in turn pass it on to others by being Your hands here on earth. And God? Please... don't let my buddy suffer... I know Your Son did, and I know we all must. But he's been through a lot, and I just want to know that he's in Your arms soon. He showed us all how to live with passion, and even more importantly, Tyler has shown us all how to leave with dignity. As long as I draw breath on this earth, I will remember my friend.